Dear Death

Give me death, for life is lonely

Give me death, one reason only

To put strings and chords to heart

And destroy my pain with art.

With no death we lay as lame,

Love is useless, so is pain.

With no death no life is needed

We will die, do you believe it?

Death is humble and discrete

Death is honest and distinct

Death is coming not to end,

Death is now my dearest friend.

Death is silent when it screams,

We all see it in our dreams,

We don’t see it while awake,

Changes we don’t like to make.

Death is soft as children’s touch,

In her palms we see our stains,

While our tears are falling down

From the egos in our names.

Dearest death, you are my loyal

And my secret push to walk,

You are here to take me further

Far away from earthly park.

Independence Today

The internet offers the opportunity to express yourself and be heard by the whole world in a blink of an eye and musicians found this as the perfect way to get away from record labels and do things on their own. This kind of escape is dual and mostly has negative results on art and on artists as well…why do I say that? Because in a big record label there is a team, there are connections to the main media, there are the best people involved and they are making the big money plus also keep in mind that I am not signed so I don’t really have an interest to write this favoring the labels but still…in a professional team you are a musician, nothing more nothing less and that’s why you can be creative and prolific, because there is someone maybe better than you covering every single aspect of the product that you sell.

By themselves musicians have the tendency to become dictators, self called gods, they start to believe they can PR, shoot a video, edit it, do make-up, materials for promotion, articles in the press…almost everything and that way the music fades, it gets weak. Ok, maybe you can get some money as an independent musician but you will never get the thrill of the big rollercoaster, you will triple your stress and effort and let’s be honest you will never win against a big record label, you will never have the radio, the TV, the sales, the money, the no. 1 hits and the top professionals, the exposure…..so on.

I do believe that you don’t need a record label to become an artist but you absolutely need it to live as one, to make your message heard working shoulder to shoulder with the top people of the industry, people you can never hire as an independent.

I wrote this after watching a lot of attempts of so called “independence” by people who are really destroying the art of music and music video by trying to do everything as cheap and as fast as they can working with amateurs or mixing, mastering, composing, directing, promoting alone….I am independent but I hope that will change soon not because I don’t work with the best right now, my team is truly gifted, but because I want to fight in the big league, that is the true competition.

Is This It?

If all we did until now is to destroy everything around us I wonder why we don’t finish all this parade. I miss the hope that music used to give to me 10 – 15 years ago, I miss the trust I could have in artists, I miss the joy of finding myself in the lyrics of a track, music is supposed to bring us together not to make us autistic and idiots.

The young minds these days fall with innocence into the pit of lost souls not even knowing there is another way, alone, stranded, misunderstood, abandoned even by their selves in a time where music pushes them to wear headphones so big that they don’t even hear their own heart beating … isolating them selves from the sound of a crying world who passes the away taking them under along with it.

Agony is chocked by glamour, it is all shape now, all symbols – no content, everything goes on in your head, nothing is out there for you to rely on and suddenly all you have left are your tears. Sad, cruel but deserved by each and every one of us, we refuse culture, we refuse knowledge, we refuse sacrifice and pain, we refuse to die being dead already.

Is this it?

The

 fame and fortune

Is this it?

The wealth and stones

    Is this why we hurt each-other

In the frenzy OF the bones

Crush and brake

For pride and sorrow?

Crush and brake

For greed and lust?

Crush and brake

To be somebody??

In the media we trust??

All I have is tears of madness

For my people lose their grip

On their soul and on their passion

On their lives and go to sleep

In my pain there is no hope

There’s no future for a man

All these kids are losing battles

Playing gently by the plan

I approach the war with patience

All there is for me to do

Is expect the unexpected

From the work I’m here to do.

Wasted Freedom

Life…we know we ‘re here but we don’t know when we’re going to leave.

What are we looking for? …I believe we are looking for us.

Why do we live? … To love and respect, to sacrifice and cry, laugh and lose.

What experiences do we really need? Any, as long as they fallow a logic and a principle, as long as they are going to change our behavior once they are done.

How do we know what’s good for us? By asking, by analyzing before jumping into things. Do you really need to betray? To deceive? To steal? To kill? To abuse? To destroy? To take drugs? To fight?

Do you really need to learn Chinese? Spanish? French? Economy?  Well all those answers come with a result too, because if they don’t we are going to waste all the time we get in this life searching for…nothing and going nowhere.

If u let a dog on a chain it will be a dog all its life doing what the instinct dictates, also if u take it off the chain, only education will make the dog useful to you knowing every step that it will always remain a dog.

As a human the instinct should not be the motor of our behavior, the soul and the brain must work together to solve the problems, to make the choices for our happiness. Childhood offers us the starting point, we each have different skills, we each have different opinions, we each feel different faced with certain situation, judging by that you should start your education so you can become useful to yourself, to win, to succeed, to reach your goals.

If you do great on mathematics I don’t see why you should study more literature, if you are a proven talented athlete why should you try to be a doctor? Ok, I know that once you grow you change but what I’m trying to say is that deep inside you know who you are and what you need but fact is you don’t give yourself enough time, you listen hard patient enough, you go with the flow, you don’t analyze yourself close enough to see where and how you perform the best.

The society holds no blame, faith doesn’t either, family neither, if you get the courage to hold yourself responsible for your actions and do not trick or lie to yourself, life will reward you a million times better…and maybe even more.

Also if you get into situations or around people that make you feel not well…you are supposed to quit, leave, change direction, don’t allow those things or people affect you.

My key to life is blame nobody but yourself, that way you will happy with your choices when u choose good and always learning something and progress when you chose wrong.

Please, don’t waste your freedom on anything.

Please, be responsible and you will be human.

 

Double “R” And For What It stands

Double “R” stands for many things from luxury vehicles to rap crews. I plan to approach this expression from a different point of view – Reality and Responsibility – connecting it with my line of work.

   My 1^st “R” – reality – is a positive one, music never fails to be the perfect advocate of it’s times, the perfect painter, the perfect photographer. Music nowadays exceeds with sexual and superficial content. Nobody fights for a cause, nobody seems to care about the beauty hidden deep into the human soul, all they care about these days is having fun by any means – with no reason, be as easy and as superficial as you can, be as one even though you have totally different approach  angle to life, have sex with as many partners as you can, don’t care about the one next to you, use any argument to get drunk or high, learn and work as little as you can and…you will be happy.

   The lyrics became scares too, poor writing is a trend these days, even rappers turned to clichés, simple rhymes with no substance, being lame is the trend we must overcome and I’m afraid we won’t… that’s why I’m writing right now – sadness – nothing solid comes from the music of today. Few names out there stayed loyal to the true principles of art but even they look sad doing it, the feeling of hopeless attempts runs through anyone’s soul who turns on a radio or a TV on a mainstream station.

   Responsibility seems dead and gone so these kids learn to use each other as simple tools, they learn to walk their steps with a mirror in their hands, only carrying about their own personal satisfaction, woman and man will not stand as one in the future, money becomes the main judging criteria in our society, not knowledge, not heart, not graciousness, not bravery, not goals……

   Sadness can not be removed from my spirit; right now I sit and watch the poor constitution of the future society surrounded by a thick mist coming from a virus called “lack of love”. We don’t love each-other anymore, at all, we don’t stop to teach, we don’t reach anymore, we don’t open up, we hide, we deceive, we reduce everything to symbols with no essence and what is worse…is that we don’t even realize the gravity of it.

  My double R is broken, reality is here, you can count on it but the responsibility is dead and gone, just like the man-woman relationship today, reality stands alone, responsibility developed a enormous ego considering itself to important to start from 0 again for the sake of mankind and you know what? Mankind deserves it!! Mankind abandoned itself before music’s responsibility did so – what do we do now? This is how I really feel.

Rap Music Pbfl History

I guess nobody can isolate that exact moment in space and time when you realize who you are and what are going to do. I make no exception so my rapping activity comes after a childhood wrapped in dancing, singing, crime related activities and a lot of running free outside the city limits with my friends…so I guess my freedom made me experience and feel almost all there is out there, I never had the instinct to fallow plus my ambition for almost impossible things pulled me towards expressing my deepest feelings with no hesitation … my passion for theatre and poetry goes perfectly together with RAP(Rhythm And Poetry) music plus my warrior side witch helps me fight against all the traps and misleads we found in music and in our society nowadays.

  My main reason to rap is the effect of listening to it all throughout my childhood and adolescent years…it taught me, supported me, carried me out when nobody would…we have a trust and  love relationship that makes me give something back!!

Superficial To This Word I Say NO!!

  Boys are looking for girls and girls are looking for boys in a time where words like: “trust” or “love” became similar with “hi” or “something”… the passion for a deep search dies everyday nowadays when passion becomes similar with the quickness of taking off your clothes, a relationship is nothing more than a way to present yourself in the society…to be or not to be in a relationship doesn’t affect the behavior of those involved in it anymore. Respect is even more extinct but who needs it? This so called important rule of the human society is caging the individual to express freely on the sexual market as he is supposed to, plus it gives you responsibility and weight in any decision…who needs that?

  Boys should be looking for girls, not for sexual objects with no feelings and personality and girls should be looking for boys, not for just somebody to take them out or just a sexual partner with a body attached to the organ or to the wallet. To do that, the search should be deep, based on real reasons of attraction, common interests, common beliefs not just a physical detail or a fantasy that we must fulfill because we’ve seen it a porn movie.

  Sadly even when the search gets deep and people try hard not to be superficial the result is just as tragic because without knowing it the media and the trends already made them superficial so the words and the actions are not based on true and honest feelings…so the majority of the girls are complaining about boys being selfish pigs and the majority of boys are complaining about girl for being heartless, easy, stupid bitches…fact is you like it like that because it takes the responsibility off your shoulders so you can act and talk anyway you want without getting any blame from the society who…does the same.

   Fallowing that, my questions for you out there are: in stead of being another voice complaining – What do you do to change that? How hard do you try to respect the one beside you? How loyal and faithful are you? How honest? Do you feel you deserve to be treated with respect? If so do you offer it 1^st?

  My respond to this is: NO!  Cuz even complaining these days is part of the trend, the music these days teaches you to cheat one-another, hit, spit, curse, shoot each-other…abuse, use, buy and sell one-another … Am I wrong to think about the kids who will come to life in this trend of living? What about the teenagers who grow up on the lyrics and sounds of today?

  Once again back to: NO! Cuz if you were trying the struggle should have been obvious…but fact is there is no struggle for love because “I love you” is used even more than “hello and goodbye” together.

  Superficial – this is the word of our times and all you get out of it is loneliness and pain. To this word I say NO!!

Pbfl 8 (Perfect)

I wrote 8(Perfect) with no other intention but to capture that precise moment when everything is perfect next to your partner, when you feel your love becomes eternal and it has no drawbacks…I wrote exactly what I was feeling in detail from my own life, from my own love story, not thinking about the flow, not thinking about the rest. I got lost in that state of mind and all that fallowed was the chase for the instruments and the sound of it.

It was the most complicated instrumental we ever produced; we argued a lot … me and the Agresiv team back in 2007… I wanted live instruments, they didn’t…so in 2010 I did it in my own way picking the voices for the chorus, the strings, the drums and send it for mastering to Chris Athens(Sterling Sound) maybe one of the most respected names in the industry.

After that it came the video where the job was even more difficult due to the fact that I had a love story and we didn’t know how exactly to present it … so we decided to remain with the “falling in love at 1^st sight”…that moment known as being extremely intense, memorable.

The style of the video is short movie, with director and D.O.P. awarded at Cannes Film Festival, professional young actors and full film crew.

  8(Perfect) is a proof of my 100% realness and honesty, I kept nothing hidden, I’ve wrote down my life, my deepest feelings chasing the perfect sound just to capture the emotion that inspired this song.

This track is also a tribute of mine to the old school hip hop love, that vibe of love and respect, that optimistic and direct approach.

This song made me realize I am a happy man.

There is nothing, without God

There is nothing, without pain

There is nothing else but love

In this life, for us, to aim.

Famous People Or True Artists?

To watch or not to watch a TV show where “specialists” are looking for new talents, future artist undiscovered yet, people who are looking for a shot to fame and fortune.

  We didn’t have these kind of shows 30-40-50 years ago and still we had the best artists discovered and signed, most of them leaving behind evergreen classics, works of art, enormous sales, world wide fame without Youtube, satellite radio and so on…

  I watched only one of these shows and then I fallowed the winner’s so called carrier in the music industry…for me it is clear that none of the people “discovered” here will become a great name because none of them is a true artist. Ok, they can have a good selling single or maybe an album due to the industry’s power and promotion plus the wave of popularity after the TV show, but that’s all that it is to it.

  Why do I say that? Well, because a true artist will never bring his creation in front of a jury (to much personality and self confidence), a true artist doesn’t need instant fame, a true artist has an individual race for his message-a unique path, a true artist doesn’t present himself hopeless and weak waiting for some TV show to make him strong, a true artist fights against the main trends of his time, a true artist stands alone, a true artist serves the people not tries to trick them into buying his work, a true artist demands respect for his originality and these contests clearly don’t search for that, a true artist would never betray art and its ways.

  Art is beauty, love, truth, hope and music is maybe even more important than food and friends that’s why you should be looking for true artists not for TV show fame freaks but what’s worse is the fact that they use kids, talented ones, but still kids who are not yet responsible for their actions, they don’t even had the chance to choose singing yet as a career, they are not grown, how many of them will make it? … they have so much work ahead even if they will choose art in the future but still they are just tools for audience…our need to be famous, the vanity hunger, our nobody status, lack of musical knowledge, our weak souls are keys for these kind of TV shows success.

We wish for somebody just like us to become something that we will never have the chance to become just because we don’t know who we are where we stand anymore…we are not all supposed to be famous, do we know what to do with it? Can we handle it? Does it make us better people? Isn’t it just a sickness?

  Ok, a TV show can bring you instant fame but it will never make you an artist so…who do we really want to listen to, famous people or true artists? 

Pbfl Carry Me Out

Carry me out is the result of my radio listening…basically I was sick of those short, no direction, no values, fake and superficial lyrics. I like the sound of 2011, I really enjoy the clearness and the sharpness of today’s recordings but I hate the lyrics so I felt the need to be carrier away from all this. That’s how I got my idea.

   I didn’t write the music that’s why the sound is not as aggressive as I like it but the feeling of the instrumental was inspired by my state of mind. I wrote the lyrics thinking about all that they seem to forget these days, J. Yolo wrote the chorus and I do believe it is a great one.

  The track is easy going, happy, it is not as street as I am, it is not as extreme as I am, it is not as rap as I produce but it is a track with a modern feeling, a track made to compete with all the heavy rotation jams out there.

  I wrote exactly from the heart, I wanted to say things without thinking to much about the flow, this is not a hip hop song

even thou it serves the people as a true hip hop track should. I grew up with hip hop and rap and that can not be removed from my blood. I

always think about what a kid will understand when it plays my song…I don’t want them to get lost even more than they already are, I want them to feel my love and respect, my devotion towards the main human values and my ability to fight for it.

“I got song

And everybody free to play

I got a heart

And everybody free to stay”